Hello Everyone,

 

It has been a while since my last post. Things have improved a little, but I am still searching for who am I and for where I belong. I keep reading about the positive aspects of my temperament and trying to focus on them, but it is difficult. It says that Melancholies are creative,gifted and self disciplined. We would make good Artists,Muscians,Fashion Designers,and Authors, just to name a few career choices. I feel like I am none of the above. God created me this way and i must learn to accept my temperament and stop letting my depression and my temperament ruin my life. I want to feel like I belong somewhere, but I don’t. I feel like I don’t fit in as a mother, as a wife or as a Christian. i always feel lost, like I don’t know what my next move is. Where do I belong? As a mother, i always feel inadequate, like I don’t know how to handle my children and their situations. As a wife, I feel like I don’t communicate enough with my husband. He tries to talk with me, but I am silent most times. As a Christian, I just don’t feel the joy and faith that I should have for the Lord. I should pray to him daily and I don’t. I sometimes feel like he doesn’t hear me and he won’t help me, but i know that he has blessed me. I must not give up. I have too much to live for. I must keep searching…

 

 

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