It has been a while since my last post. I have been very tired. Tired and depressed. This whole Melancholy temperament wears me out. I feel like nothing I do is good enough. Instead of sharing my thoughts with my husband I keep them in for fear of his reaction. I always take his reactions negatively. That constant strive for that unattainable goal of perfection is slowly killing me. I constantly get headaches and my thoughts are constantly racing.I suffer from EXTREME low self esteem. If I could give only one piece of advice to parents, it would be to constantly tell your children that they are good and that they can achieve whatever they want out of life and if they fall get back up. I was never taught that, I was told that what I was doing was “stupid” or that how I though made no sense. That has hurt me more than anything in my life. It definitely did not help this Melancholy temperament of mine.
It has been truly a tough few weeks. I pray that I can get back on track. Have you ever felt like you just wanted to disappear? I am just tired…How can I be a good mother and wife, if I don’t believe that I am worthy of holding those titles. How can I teach my children to be positive and strong if I feel weak and tired? These are just a couple of the challenges that I am facing. Does anyone else out there have any similar challenges?